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falling flat. getting steamrolled. waiting in the wings. lost in the shadows.

these are all phrases that I associate with the type of person I am.

[we have lift off]

falling flat

when I feel as if I have completed a task to my self-expectations. did I forget to mention that even though they may be just-right goals for me, they don't even come close to the abilities of my peers that come oh-so-easily to them?

getting steamrolled.

now, I know some pretty passive aggressive people, but I won't name names. okay, I'll name one; jordan. I'm that girl that gets extremely angry or annoyed at someone, see's them the next day and doesn't even mention it. I suppose I've just accepted the idea internally that certain people's thoughts or ideas are above mine and they have a greater right to voice their minds then I do. I really wish I would stop forgetting that I have a voice too.

waiting in the wings.

similar to getting steamrolled. whatever. what happens when two people start talking at the same time? one person usually continues, and the other quietly backs off and listens. I'm not sure I could name a single time (unless I was hopped up on caffeine in which case I will not stop talking for any reason whatsoever) that I didn't back down. this trait gets me in heaps of trouble sometimes. I take longer to form my thoughts, perhaps because I get distracted easily, or have I'm sure a plethora of other psychological instincts that I've developed over time. it seems as though I'm always waiting for someone else to finish, so that I can begin, but sometimes, people never finish.

lost in the shadows.

this year in my spanish class, we examined the idea of having multiple selves. at home, I talk 24/7 am always voicing my opinion, loudly, and engaging in playful arguments with friends and family. in the classroom setting, especially my morning classes which are the same everyday due to a specific program that I'm in, I find it extremely difficult to step out of the shadow and into the spotlight, or microscope as it seems. 

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I'm not sure what this post was really. I know it doesn't really offer new information, but for me, your blog should be a place to express your thoughts and emotions, and right now, these are my thoughts. I also recognize that there are plenty of people out there with similar thoughts, so please, comment down below how you feel.

welcome

Welcome to this blog and thank you for visiting!

My name is Jordan and I'm a 17 Senior in high school living in the northern suburbs of Chicago. I've created this blog as part of an English assignment, but I've been blogging independently about fashion and my life in general for the past 2.5 years.

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This blog is a place for me to develop my writing skills, as well as address current issues. The thought behind the title "Mood" is the idea that when you walk into a room, you can usually feel the mood of it. This idea isn't just limited to a room or how you feel, but you can also talk about the mood of a country's economy or the mood of the National Football League for example. I plan on addressing both of these topics throughout this year. I'm sure my opinion will sneak its way into some posts as well. For another class, we've been assigned a country to keep tabs on throughout the year and I've been assigned Vietnam, so I'm also going to try to incorporate that into some posts.

Some topics I plan on addressing other than those mentioned above are:

• The Stigma of Depression
• Ebola
• The Middle East
• Poetry
• The College Application Process
• The Materialism of Holidays

These are just things that are rolling around in my head right now, who knows where we'll be in June!

I hope that this I can keep this blog on track and not only address topics that are current, but are also interesting for you. Although this blog may cover a variety of topics, I hope to keep everything connected with the idea of mood and also use this "lens" to delve deeper into aspects of topics that I may not have noticed otherwise.

I hope you enjoy this journey (was that too cheesy? I think yes) with me.
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Until next time,
Jordan